Not always this bad

It wasn’t always this bad, my [[husband]] says

You were like this for a while in grad school

But it hasn’t been this bad since then

I’m sure it will go away again

You think I’ve been better between then and now? I ask

Yeah, my husband says. What, [[you don’t think so?]]

No, I don’t

I feel like things have always been like this, and will always be like this.

And even if it’s a cycle, I don’t find that very comforting

That just means they will be [[like this]] again