If there’s one thing I can’t stand,

It’s when my husband is mad at me

Because I know I deserve it

Because I know I’m a piece of shit

So I go into the bathroom and I sit on a towel

On the edge of the tub

which isn’t very comfortable 

because of the thin metal piece that sticks up there

And I take the blade from the package on the shelf

And I make two small straight lines

And for a moment

I do not wonder [[what I should do]]

What I should do is apply antiseptic

What I should do is clean this up