Fault
I once got very mad at my [[husband]]
Who was then my boyfriend
For having diarrhea on the way back from a music festival
They had eaten a hot dog there
And when we were walking home
They had to use the porta potty at an empty construction site
I don’t remember why I was [[angry]]
at someone else’s sickness
Only that I was
And that I walked very fast
All the way home
I think maybe I’m angry at anything that diverts attention away from me
At least the attention of someone I love
It was like that [[when I was a kid]], too
I used to [[exaggerate]] everything
Someone would tell me to be quiet
That I shouldn’t interrupt when the grown-ups were talking
And I’d imagine not talking for the rest of my life
Sinking into a silence so deep that they regretted ever having wronged me
That they’d be longing always to know,
What was that thing I’d been going to say